I hate waiting. One day when I arrived at the office and left my ID at home, there’s no way to enter the R and D department without an ID. The receptionist was not around and there are no employees at the lobby. The usual thing to do if you left your ID is to wait for any employee to arrive/pass the lobby so you could have access inside. But no, I don’t want to wait so I tried calling two of my teammates just so I could enter.
Waiting makes me impatient. I hate people walking slowly in the busy road of Makati. I would often pass them by and make sure that they see that “I’m in a hurry so please, move out of the way”. If I have to choose between riding an escalator or climbing the stairs, I would usually climb the stairs especially If I’m motivated to exercise or when I see heavy traffic in the escalator.
So, to wait on the Lord is something that I really have to learn. The bible exhorted us many times to wait on the Lord.
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“Be still in the presence of the Lord and wait patiently for Him to act” – Psalm 37:7
“Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him” – Psalm 37:7
Be still or to Rest in the Lord – same as in Joshua 10:12 and Ezekiel 24:17
“O Sun, stand still at Gibeon” – Joshua10:12
“Groan silently”, “Forbear to cry” – Ezekiel24:17
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They say that women are naturally manipulators. We can see men’s weaknesses and can manipulate them by our looks and emotions. We can easily disarm them if they are not on guard. To wait on the Lord for Him to give me my future husband is very hard. It is tempting to “help out” God by doing things that could advance any relationships to the next stage.
The Lord has been putting it in my heart to wait on Him on this certain matter. That He will be the one to say the word if when is the right time and how things should happen. If He gave the go signal, if He open the doors, if He just say the Word, it will happen. I have to wait for that. I have to be still in His presence. Being still is something that I’m really learning. Just like the sun that stood still at Gibeon, I have to be still in God’s presence. Even if things are not going my way, and is making me uneasy, I have to stand still. I have to endure the tension of waiting.
Being still means resting in His presence. Resting in his presence means being comfortable, peaceful, contented and relaxed in His presence. So to avoid the tension and uneasiness of waiting, I have to rest in God’s presence. There may be hardship and trials along the way, but to endure all of those things, I have to be contented in God’s presence. After all, God wants me more than anything else. God wants my heart, mind and soul yielded to Him. To have someone or something else replace my heart for God is idolatry.
For the longest time, God has been teaching me these things. I easily get excited when something triggers my heart so being quiet and still before the Lord, waiting on Him to act is really something to learn on. Easy? No. But it’s worth His presence and joy.
